It's been a while since I've scribed. Not really sure the direction this blog is going, but I will just let it be whatever it wants to be.
This summer has been an actual "summer!!" If I recall correctly, last year it rained like crazy, but we have had a really hot summer in the NYC, though sticky, reminds me of summers from my childhood.
Currently at a crossroads, pondering decisions regarding next steps in life. This is the first time in a long time I have been still. Not running around spreading myself so thin. This is something I am not used to at all, but I know is a necessary evil for my sanity and self preservation.
Now what do I do?
Sometimes in life, we have to be still and make the time to look at the direction life is taking us and decide how we are going to move this compass. I took a Time Management workshop recently. It made me realize that if I applied the methods learned, it could change the entire direction of my life as I know it. I zoned out in the midst of the other participants talking and really visioned what that would be like.
Mapping out my critical goals for the short and long term, putting all of that on paper. Who do I want to be?What do I want? What are my core values? I spend so much time at the office and being all things to all people, it's time to just focus on me. Imagine that!!! Hello!!! Yes, it's okay to do that Ms. Malcom!!! If you don't who will!!!!!
I must admit, I felt like I was going through a bit of a depression this summer, but I read something recently that sometimes when we feel depressed we really need a deep rest!!! A resting of the mind, body and spirit.
One of my favorite singers Anthony Hamilton said it best "Sometimes, you gotta walk alone."
This is a critical transitional period for me. I will be 35 in February and right now, this is the time to set the stage for whats to come. It's a huge milestone and though a confusing time right now, I know, as always, things will iron out, because they always do. I am determined to let my light shine, even if it's a bit on the rose colored side for right now!!!
Peace and Love....
Lady X (Long story!!)
